Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Moving Forward

I have been feeling a bit restless lately. It is not overwhelming; I can say is that it has been an underlying emotion. It is kind of like a fly that keeps returning. It could be a concern for the future, in light of all that has happened this month. It is not worry. It is just a distant hum; do you know what I am talking about? It could be anything when we offer our lives to Jesus, right? I could be on my way to Ghana tomorrow.

There are some days when I wake up with a word from God in my mind. There are others where He gives it to me after I read scripture in the morning, and there are others still where He gives me something in prayer. Any way that it happens, I am happy. Today, I have only a question in response to my underlying currents. I thought that I would share it with you, and the scripture that His Spirit gave me.

I sat for a long time this morning in prayer. I wrote this in my journal. “He places in everything the will to advance, a hope for our future, a day of expectation. We know that there has to be more. As Christians, day-to-day we aspire to manifest Him. We long to be expressions of Him.” I believe that we are advancing, constantly progressing. It is the pattern of creation and all that He has made. We move forward; we should move intentionally. Accompanying this forward motion can be…restlessness.

To my restless spirit, he simply asked… “Where do you want to go?”

This is how I picture the scene. He is holding me. I am squirming because sometimes I act like I am two. I am “not using my words”. I am whining and kind of whimpering. So, He sets me down in front of Him and He looks at me and says (just like you would to a two year old), “where do you want to go?”

All that I could answer was, “nowhere”. I want to be alongside of Him. I don’t know why I am feeling this way right now. Any other will not have the hope for my future. Any other will be an imitation, a fraud. My restlessness could be purposeful. It is making me state that I want Jesus; I just want to be with Him. Or, it could be my feeble nature trying to push me to discontent. Either way, I will not be moved. I choose to stay at His side. That is my decision today.

We all make decisions every day, don’t we? Where do you want to go today?

Here is the scripture He gave me, Psalm 139,

7 Where can I go from your spirit?

Or where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there;

if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there.

9 If I take the wings of the morning

and settle at the farthest limits of the sea,

10 even there your hand shall lead me,

and your right hand shall hold me fast.

11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,

and the light around me become night,”

12 even the darkness is not dark to you;

the night is as bright as the day,

for darkness is as light to you.

1 comment:

  1. I absolutely understand this feeling. I really liked how you compared yourself to a squirming two-year-old. I see myself acting that way at times too!

    Thank you so much for your comment on my last post. It really touched me.


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