Yesterday, at church, I sat down in front of a friend of mine. I turned to her and said, “When you are suffering, isn’t this the hardest place to be? Here, everyone knows your business.” She and I started talking this common language of suffering. What a relief to hear another heart that hurt.
I didn’t have to pretend. I didn’t have to excuse myself. I didn’t have to worry if I seemed too happy.
I have been suffering. This is a wonderful biblical term that can include anything from dealing with difficult relationships, to the death of loved one, to physical illness, to persecution.
Mine is a specific brand of suffering known to many women. I have cleared my schedule and dealt with this at the feet of my Hope, My Restorer. Closer than my breath, He has stayed near, leading me into healing.
Jesus is the only one who can heal emotional wounds. That is so humbling.
True mourning and true healing is a process unfamiliar to me, but how grateful I am to bend under it.
I know that some day I will write and write about it, but for now it is still an active process.
Thank you to those of you who have written me, or spoken with me. In this world of blogging, it is refreshing to be reminded that this is about relationships. Real relationships. Your notes meant so much to me.
I am really looking forward to catching up on everyone’s blogs. If you have done something fun in the last couple of weeks that I can’t miss, please, leave me a comment.
Also, the May edition of Exemplify Magazine is out! The theme of this month is faithfulness. I learned so much while writing that article, so be sure to pop over if you have the chance. It is always an encouragement to me.
Tracy,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read that you have been suffering. My heart goes out to you and I just prayed for you. I will continue to pray.
Many blessings,
Amy
I've been praying over you, sweet friend...God just sort of placed you on my heart and left you there. I wanted to write and check on you, but that seemed weird until today. God surely provides the support of friends, even when neither know just what's going on! I'm praying over this silent request of sorts, let me know if I can get specific with you! Love you!
ReplyDeleteI have been and will continue to pray sweet friend. I know He Heals and Restores. I am praying for those things and more.
ReplyDeleteI was listening to the radio yesterday and an author who has written a book called Big God was talking about how suffering is the most intimate thing we can go through with God. I think he may be right.
Send you lots of Love.
♥♥♥
ReplyDeleteTracy you came to mind the other day, seemingly out of the blue. Now I know why. I will be praying for you friend! My heart is with you.
ReplyDeleteTracy,
ReplyDeleteYou have also been on my mind. I wish I knew the words to say, but I do not. I'm praying for you and loving you across the miles. Call me when you are ready to talk.
Carla
I'm sorry too, I'm praying for you that the Lord Jesus will lift you up!
ReplyDeleteI struggle with grief still and my mother died over 2 years ago. Most days are good; but I have those moments when I so desperately want my mother, to touch her and whisper in her ear that I love her.
Tracy, I concur with Jenn - you have been on my heart lately and now I see why. I'm so sorry to hear of this valley. I am praying for you, sweet one. There will be a light.
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